Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Which means I stayed up too late not so much doing fun stuff as NOT doing useful stuff like preparing my food or getting sleep so I could get up and workout.
BUMP, Bump, bump.
AND I've been waking after not enough sleep, anxious about work. I should have spent more of my vacation clearing my head and less of it goofing off like a teenager :(
This morning I had enough. I woke after 6 hours of sleep (not enough) and this time I got up. I did not workout. I DID, however, spend a good chunk of time meditating and attempting to clear my head (like 90 minutes). It's impressive how big a monster something small can become when you refuse to look at it straight on and it sidles up into your periphery vision.
So I'm feeling better centered now and am ready to go to bed early this evening and KICK ASS tomorrow!
Monday, July 26, 2010
This morning was different.
Kung Fu pushups ... I know it's not a great idea to start with a negative attitude as it colors the result in a bad way but my initial, gut thought was: NO WAY JOSE!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Thought I’d share a couple of photos taken on my last day:
Here is the road to my oasis of calm:
The road goes over the hill – if you’re driving a 4-wheel drive vehicle or ATV. Ours is the last house on the road before hitting State Forest land, so anytime a vehicle comes driving past, unless loaded with mountain bikes, it’s only a matter of minutes before it comes driving right back down.
Here is my oasis of calm:
And here is how I feel when I’m here, nothing but clover:
Some days just open up beautifully. This morning I again got up early and did my KFB workout. Unexpectedly, I feel more self-conscious about my KFB workout when I’m doing it out in the middle of nowhere. I guess it just seems more out of place than in the hustle and bustle of my everyday world.
That, and my neighbors are more likely to be interested in what I’m doing. Small town America – gotta love it J
After meeting with a driller, I drove up to Burlington (the biggest city in Vermont, it is still MUCH smaller than where I live outside of Philadelphia) and it was a gorgeous day:
Today meditating went well – and I found myself more open and observant as I took a morning stroll and noticed this tiny, delicate mushroom in the road:
It’s quiet here – not dead silence: there’s more bird calls, the whisper of wind through the grass and leaves, and (unfortunately) the traffic from the valley below carries all too well. But it’s lovely, and I don’t miss the perpetual sound of music, media, etc. of my everyday life. Not at all.
And this evening, after another blistering rainstorm, there was a lovely rainbow:
Old habits – waking early – don’t disappear because I’m on vacation. But I didn’t wake as early as I usually do. I did my stretches and meditation on the deck – but was a weeeee bit distracted by the view:
I missed most of the rest of my KFB workout, mostly because I decided to run up the hill and was enjoying it so much that I ran clear over and down the other side. By the time I got home, I was beat. Still, a lovely workout.
I thought it would be easier to meditate while on vacation – fewer things to obsess over. So far, no dice. But it is prettier:
Although there was a rainstorm to end all rainstorm this afternoon. You could barely see 50 feet away:
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
It's like living in a sauna. Working out ... well, I've been doing that at the gym.
I'll 'fess up to not being as tough as I'd like to be and went there purely for the lovely A/C. Still hot and sticky, but I'm sure I didn't dehydrate myself nearly so badly.
Also - now I'm drawn almost exclusively to raw foods. And my gazpacho. And my new favorite salad:
Apples & Celery tossed in a dressing of yogurt and lemon juice with a sprinkling of walnuts and freshly ground black pepper.
Sweet. Tart. Spicy. Cold.
Easy, filling, and refreshing. The recipe calls for the skins, but I'm more allergic to the skins than anything else, so I peeled mine.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Sigh. I'm disappointed, but am proud of myself for cutting myself some slack.
One - 2, 6-hour drives
Two - Hotter than HELL (OMG not comfortable. This morning it was 86 at five am)
Three - Spent most of the long weekend and yesterday working on a proposal. When I wasn't, I was driving or doing chores for my Mom
Four - Stressed and anxious about the proposal (and about the lost holiday) I didn't sleep well.
Today is the first day in about a week where I feel normal amounts of stress. Yay! So I feel better prepared to get back in the game.
Thank goodness I'm going on vacation in 9 days!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
For the first time in nearly 2 weeks I've had a comfortable street run (yay!!!! - That's AWESOME for my mental health)
On the minus side ... a friend of mine at work (and her mother) were having a meatball contest. And everyone went all out: sauce, bread ... cannolis ... . Let just say I was a good friend and a not-so-good KFBer :)